intuition

instinct,
perception,
hunch,
feeling,
inkling,
presentiment,
I looked it up, and all these words describe what it feels like..

Women have a unspoken synergy, I guess that's what you'd call it.
I've experienced both sides of this phenomenon..
I found, the "keeping what you have,"
feels a little bit powerless against the "trying to get what you want"...
but not always..

I think it's cuz the "trying to get what you want", usually has the upper
hand with setting the rules and knowing all the players...
Doesn't mean they'll succeed, but that's also not always their intention.. really...

I was about seven and can remember the first time I experienced this.
I went over to my grandparents house, who live two doors down
and felt a strange energy as I walked into the kitchen.
I'll never forget it.
I remember seeing a young lady sitting at the table with my grandfather.
They were talking quietly..
And my grandmother? I think she was crying when she walked passed me and out the door.
My Mom followed right behind.

I found out years later the young lady was my grandfather's daughter from another woman.
......
It was my grandmother's intuition that finally brought her to their door.
Poor girl, I don't know whatever became of her or the other woman, but I never saw her again.

I could tell it destroyed my Yiayia.
Still, she always held her head high and I guess, forgave my Papou.
For a little while, he even stopped taking her for granted and treated her nice.
.....
But for the rest of her life, I don't think she truly believed him when he said he loved her.

When she died, he was lost.
I once found him standing in the closet, holding her wigs in his face, crying....
Trying to smell her as he called out her name...

How sad...

I remember when I was 17 and just knew my boyfriend liked this girl..
Intuition..
I saw her at a party. She was standing by the firepit when I walked up to her.
Our friends thought I was gonna kick the shit outta her.
*Why? Silly people*
I introduced myself and said I know Scott likes you and it's cool... I hope you guys are happy.
We didn't become best buddies, just friends...
And her friendship helped me several months later when something bad happened to me.
Can you imagine if I had kicked the shit outta her??

intuition, it is what it is....