birthday wishes

My birthday was on the 25th.... yeah yeah yeah... 49 isn't where I wanna be, even though I still look damn sexy...
It's been, hmmm... 9 years since my Mom died (on my birthday) and they're not so much sad birthday's, just not whole...
I miss her so..
I had a hard day, family shit... not good with the drama... so I'm on my 2nd beer... don't think I'll finish it, cuz I'm such a light weight...
Now when I used to do drugs in my early days ( 2 yrs worth) I could pound some liquor...
NOT that I want those days back.
But I'm buzzed so I mentioned them.
I'm still debating whether I'll edit my writing, just in case someone I know reads it or just have a full explosion of me.....
too late... finished my beer..
Even though my day was crappy...
I took a moment to go through the birthday cards I got, and what everyone wrote to me...
It made the day better.
:]
I'm listening to new music I downloaded by Chris Whitley on my new ipod...
(What a tragedy to lose such a talented man...)
I guess, life isn't too bad...
'nite*

words...

Sometimes words are the only escape...
Sometimes they're hard to come by..
Sometimes they flow too much...
Sometimes I just want to use them without anyone I know, knowing..